RANDOM THOUGHTS

I’ve been anxious of a lot of things these past few days. I just need to withdraw all the thoughts.

Of being gentleman…

Of course, we girls would want to meet and to work with gentlemen. But, I guess, being a gentleman also has limits. There’s also a line between being a gentleman and being over-acting (or even pretending) to be a gentleman.

Why do guys have to extend their hands out to girls whenever they get off the jeep? I mean, can’t a guy simply wait for a girl without stretching out his hands as if the girl doesn’t have the capacity to get off the jeep by herself. Courtesy is fine. The guy could wait and simply be alert if in case an accident arises.

Nothing’s bad about being a gentleman. But a true gentleman is someone who respects and knows the capacity of a woman.

Of not being able to do things I want to do…

I’ve always wanted to watch plays, concerts, film fest (Cinemalaya in particular), watch movies… But I am unfortunate that I can’t afford to do all these things.

One, not all the time I have the money. To watch a concert, it’ll cost me at least P500. I don’t earn much or rather I earn super small amount – not enough to venture into these things.

Second, I don’t always have a companion to attend to these events. Yes, I have a lot of friends, but they don’t seem to enjoy those things I want. Or, it can be that they also want to watch a play or a concert but don’t have the money or the time to do so.

I can always watch movie alone but to watch a play or a concert alone is another thing. It’s something not worth going if you’re alone – for sure it won’t be fun.

Of looking for something spiritual to do…

Sounds weird?

When I say spiritual, it’s not something that’s religious. I just want to try out other things that will nurture my soul. It’s not attending mass or being in a bible study session, I know it’s something else.

Of having a family…

My friend and I were discussing last Saturday of the challenges of building a family. We were thinking how can we have our own families if our monthly salaries are not even enough to sustain our daily living?

To deliver a baby is quite expensive. For a normal delivery, you should have at least twenty thousand pesos. If you’re unlucky, a caesarian delivery would cost you at least sixty thousand pesos. After financing your hospitalization, you’d know face the challenge of nurturing your child.

In a month, a baby would spend more or less four thousand pesos for the milk. Aside from that, a baby would need vaccines that would cost at least two thousand pesos each.

As your child grows, the different needs also arise. I wonder, how much it would cost to send a child in pre-school by the time I have a family.
Moral: Marry a rich guy just kidding. Of course, marry if you’re emotionally, intellectually, and financially ready!

Of SPSS and fear of Math...

It’s unavoidable. I really have to take a stat course for my Master’s. I am really afraid of numbers (although I never failed any math subject at all). Back in high school and college, my knees would always shake whenever I’d be tasked to do a board work for math.

Now, I’ve got to face another math subject. Although it is computer aided (SPSS), I still fear numbers.

Of lack of romantic relationship…

I was never in a hurry and never will I be hurry. I am irritated of people who’d wonder why I don’t have a boyfriend or rather never had a boyfriend at all. Why care? I can’t believe that for some people, not having a boyfriend is some sort of a crucial issue. Some think I am a lesbian. To set the record straight, I was not a lesbian, I am not a lesbian, and will never be a lesbian.