Disdained and Regarded Identity

sorry, too personal musings again...

While I try to conquer life’s challenges, I usually find myself in the midst of ambiguity.
There's an apparent perennial thinking and wondering.
I guess I've yet to learn more about life.

Trying to understand afloat contradictions, occurrences seem to puzzle me.
The extremities that confront me give me bliss and suffering.
I simply couldn't find the balance.

As I start to look my self in the mirror, I see tears falling and smiles flourishing.
I see tinge of audacity and streak of fear.
It's full of irony and extremes.

I'm happy but sad.

I’m in bliss but suffering.

I'm beautiful yet ugly.

I’m intelligent but slow.

I’m arrogant but shy.

I'm good but bad.